pregnant with twins..

I still can hear it like is was yesterday, my talk with God, I know the exact spot, I was baking and it was like he was there with me,... it went like this...

God..'' your next baby is going to be twins..''
me...''chuckle, why would you give me twins if I cant handle the 3 I have''

that was it, so short but so real, I did not forget it but I tried to tell myself it wasn't real and yet it never left me so when I got pregnant I found myself wondering was that really God telling me something or was it my own thoughts.. by eight weeks pregnant I knew something was different and I told my husband we are pregnant with twins, he looked at me like I am crazy...:) so the checkups began, Dr. Brenten was once again my doc. second checkup I mention to her that I feel big that maybe there are two in there, she checked for two heart beats but said no she don't think so, so at 15 weeks pregnant I felt movement then at 18 weeks it stopped for 2 weeks I felt nothing.. we prayed I cryed thinking something was wrong with my baby, at 20 weeks I called my midwife and explained to her whats going on she said to come in and they will try to find the heart beat. meanwhile I started to google twin symptoms.. and one of them was not being able to feel the heartbeat as soon and racing heart which I had.. so when I went in for my checkup and they found a strong heart beat once again I said something about carrying twins and she said no she don't think so, I left there thinking I am pregnant with twins and I wanna confirm it so I called women and Babies and scheduled an ultra sound.. Friday mornings we dropped the kiddos of at school and sam and I headed in.. the guy that was to do our ultra sound asked why we are there and feeling a little sheepish said I guess to know our date, but did say I think there are two in there, he raised his eyebrows and chuckled really!! he started the ultra sound and sure enough he said your right I see two heads!!!!!!!!!!! I will never forget sams response:):) and I calmly said'' you mean twins'':):)  

and so the journey began...
we picked the kids up at school and told them, then went and shared it with sams mom, my mom and sisters, called my friends on sat. and shared it on facebook sat. night..
                                                    Raystown.. 10 weeks pregnant.. 

                                                      cherry crest farm.. 20 weeks pregnant

                                                                

                                                                   37 weeks pregnant

the first 3 month of my pregnancy was a little rocky, tired, nausea, and with it being summer time and the busy schedule it felt like I could not keep my energy level up.. also didn't help that it was the first summer at our new place so lots of outside work and just trying to keep up with a bigger house.. the next 4 month were great!! then the last two well lets just say they were the 2 longest month I ever experience.. with both babies being breeched it was hard to eat, sleep, or even sit for long periods at a time..our prayer was that the babies would flip so I could deliver natural, but God answered our prayer in a different way, the doc. told me that if they would have been head down there is no way I would have carried to 37 weeks because of how big they were, so being in a breeched position helped to keep them in there longer.. and so looking back I can say already ''it wasn't so bad'' we are excited for this time in our lives, overwhelming YES.. if I try to figure out how this is gonna work I could drive myself crazy.. so asking God for strength each day is the only way I am going to make it through because I cannot do it on my own strength. the quote I hear a lot is ''God does not give you more then you can handle.''. well I read recently that yes he does give you more then you can handle... but WITH HIM you can make it through, so yes crying out to him to cover my children in areas I fail, to give me the wisdom to raise up men and women after Gods own heart, to be able to teach them about the fathers love and how he much he loves them,
 right now my song that gets me through is your grace finds me.. by Matt Redman.. 
                       Be Blessed..