Oh spring where art thou

I have been very much enjoying this winter.. while everyone else was tired of the snow I was enjoying it..what was better then cuddling the babies and watching it snow.. but now that the flu has found its way here in our home I am so so ready to see sunshine!!!
This past week has been interesting to say the least...It started thurs. when I came down with the flu, earache, headache, sore throat, and then the girls, and then Monday Joshua started coughing.. so once again I had to skip out on church.. seems to be happening a lot lately, there is always something missing when I don't get to worship with church  family over the weekend, so the last 5 days it seemed all I did was take care of sick children and by evenings I was exhausted..so sunday morning when mom walked in the door after sam went to church I escaped to our bedroom and knowing the children were in good hands I crashed.. slept for 3 hours straight...thank-you mom!!!

Monday I went to hang out at Ruthies for the day although  the children were still not doing that great I thought it would be good to get out of the house a little, had a fun day doing some projects with the kiddos and made some freezer meals..got home around 4 and then the rest of the night was chaos!! I mean literally.. Olivia went from bad to worse and Joshua was getting tighter, mom called to see how things were going and ended up coming up right away it took sam, mom and I all evening to attend to our sick children..it crossed my mind that ''God what were you thinking I cant do this..'' Olivia was still laying around today, she amazes me not once did she complain or cry from pain she just lays there and does not say a word,  if we ask where it hurts she would point to her throat, not until later did we realize both of her ears were draining so we took her to the doc. and sure enough both ear drums ruptured.. she loves to listen to music and so she would put my phone beside her ear.. Today was a better day still did nothing but attend to the children but we are making progress..my husband keeps reminding me of the high calling of motherhood and when I say I did not get anything done he is quick to assure me that I did..I am so grateful for family and friends, was talking to a friend and she said I am to come and get her nebulizer and use it for Joshua and so I quick ran down to her house to get it,  then she gave me subs for supper.. stopped at the store for a few items and met one of sams aunts and she went out to take a peek at the boys and when I went to leave there was money on the seat.. blessed again..

through it all I am realizing once again that on my own I will not make it, but with God it can be a joyful time, there was one night in particular that I was not feeling that great and sam took the kids out for a walk and both boys wanted my attention, it was already 7:30 on a school night the dishes were still on the table, there was laundry piled high the kids needed to be bathed and started to listen to the lies.. ''look at all your work,'' you cant do this'' you will never be able to give your children what they need'' on and on I felt self pity starting to creep in.. but then I started to sing and demanding the enemy to get behind me... because with Christ all things are possible..

     this man is my hero..he spends many evenings rocking, holding the boys.. sometimes from the time he comes in the house at 5:30 till 10:00 he has one of the boys in his arm..

morning devotions, so momma can have a few minutes of quiet time..

 

 

 

Dear Grandma

Dear Grandma
we miss you already!! your smile, your prayers, your words of encouragement, your example, I know there were days when you were in pain, or when you lost most of  your eye sight, but I NEVER once heard you complain.. you worked hard, lived with very little,

seems liked just yest. I would watch for you to come walking up the trail, you would come and help with the loads of work, you would not make much fuss just dig in and start washing dishes, mend the socks and fold them.. play a game of uno and then be on your way only to come back in a few days and do it again..all the days of canning.. peeling the bushels of peaches and apples..you were so fast!! I loved to hear you talk about the by gone days..

I loved to sit and watch you quilt..we would talk..I would play with the marble roller and one day me and another cousin decieded to roll all the marbles down the steps, what a racket but still you did not get upset, you assured us that its not a good idea and then you helped us pick them up...

I  remember the words you said to me on our wedding day..''you look so beautiful''

You said it more then once ''I'm ready to go'' so we let go, we move on,  you will be missed but will always remain in our hearts!!
I love you Grandma ....I wanna be just like you when I grow up

The Boys are healthy and growing.. had their 6 week checkup this week and they both look great.. joseph weighs 10lbs 3oz.. Joshua 9lbs 14 oz...

They are still on a 3 to 4 hr. schedule.. still breastfeeding but did have to add a bottle of formula in our evening schedule..,I was determined to stick with just breastfeeding but after a couple of evenings of bouncing, patting, walking the boys we started giving a bottle in there 5 o clock schedule and we have much happier content babies!!!! now we give at least one bottle at every feeding.. which also helps when I have two hungry boys, I can feed one and give the other one a bottle.. I did not like when I was feeding one and the other one was screaming because he was hungry...
now that I am by myself more during the day reality is hitting me.. I have two babies and it is busy!!! sure figuring out a whole new level of multi tasking ...I figured out I can hold two babies and get a bottle ready at the same time!! hold a baby, be on the phone and pour your son a bowl of cereal...
I also depend on my children which they do a super good job! the other morning  at 6:00 I was feeding one and the other one woke up and started to cry, Brianna came out of her bedroom and with out a word picked up the crying baby and half asleep sat on the couch and held him till I was ready..
went  to a outgrown sale in downingtown this morning so that meant we had to all be ready to leave the house at 7:00 ..I was laying in bed thinking how is this going to work... it worked, we made it :):)

our evening schedule is getting better and better we hit a record and were back in bed in 30 min....
hubby gets up now at every feeding I will feed the first one that wakes up then I hand him over to hubby and he changes burps and gives him the rest with the bottle..then I feed the second one..

this is where hubby and I hang out 2 am in the morning!!!like I said before I could not do it without him...

just some more pictures of the boys..   he loves his brothers!!

                                         how again did these two little people fit in there??